stumbled upon a new beginning / jan 2012
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alberich
Life, love, the silence of loss and the reluctance to begin everything again. Those sensations.
MUSIC
(seven tracks in all)
KERRIGAN & LOWDERMILK - how to return home
Like walking into a museum somehow out of time
AGNES OBEL - philharmonics
instrumental
FONOGENICO - reason
BOOKS & FICS
Possibility, infinity, beauty -- none of those words were right. [...] What he really wanted to say was: have you felt this? this phantom life streaking like a phosphorescent hound at the edges of your ruin?
- Haven Kimmel, The Solace of Leaving Early
Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it. We anticipate (we know) that someone close to us could die, but we do not look beyond the few days or weeks that immediately follow such an imagined death. We misconstrue the nature of even those few days or weeks. We might expect if the death is sudden to feel shock. We do not expect this shock to be obliterative, dislocating to both body and mind. We might expect that we will be prostrate, inconsolable, crazy with loss. We do not expect to be literally crazy, cool customers who believe their husband is about to return and need his shoes.
- Joan Didion, The Year Of Magical Thinking
A Test of Courage
APH AU fic. Alfred and Ivan join the third grade Astronomy Club. Fluff ensues.
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It’s all the same except the girl in the hallway
Where she’s been and who she will ripen into
AGNES OBEL - philharmonics
He fell down, just to drown
In a sea of delight
To tame champagne
And creatures of the night
CLINT MANSELL - a new swan queeninstrumental
FONOGENICO - reason
Kimagire na tabi ni uchi yosete kaesu
Meguriai wa sansan tsukarehatete…
(Ebbing and flowing on a whimsical journey
(Ebbing and flowing on a whimsical journey
I’m really tired of going around in circles)
JIM MORAY - big loveOh I'll build you a kingdom
In that house on the hill
JENNY LEWIS WITH THE WATSON TWINS - melt your heartNothing is ever as good as it was
And what's good for your soul will be bad on your nerves
ZEE AVI - swell windowI met with a young man
Who has an ocean romance
And he calls it the way of life
He tells me how he feels when he's alone
With the raging sound of calm
The raging sound of calm
Possibility, infinity, beauty -- none of those words were right. [...] What he really wanted to say was: have you felt this? this phantom life streaking like a phosphorescent hound at the edges of your ruin?
- Haven Kimmel, The Solace of Leaving Early
Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it. We anticipate (we know) that someone close to us could die, but we do not look beyond the few days or weeks that immediately follow such an imagined death. We misconstrue the nature of even those few days or weeks. We might expect if the death is sudden to feel shock. We do not expect this shock to be obliterative, dislocating to both body and mind. We might expect that we will be prostrate, inconsolable, crazy with loss. We do not expect to be literally crazy, cool customers who believe their husband is about to return and need his shoes.
- Joan Didion, The Year Of Magical Thinking
A Test of Courage
APH AU fic. Alfred and Ivan join the third grade Astronomy Club. Fluff ensues.
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